So I am humbled by the fact that Nolan is not really sick-- He has a very treatable thing and is really on the verge of being perfectly healthy. I have seen so many kids in the hospital-- having things like Cancer, TB, unexplainable rashes (So bad that they cannot eat or leave their room) to genetic disorders that require hopsitalization. It is very eye opening and sad. These families do not complain-- they take it one day at a time-- and the kids are even more amazing.
But as a Mom I am still struggling with going to sleep tonight. I see Nolan laying in bed looking perfectly peaceful but every now and then he has trouble breathing (he gasps for air making this really "fun" sound) and occasionally his heart rate drops to below 90 and his oxygen level goes between 70-85. All things that were not happening this morning or in the past 48 hours.
Is he okay-- of course-- I am sure he is just reacting to the anesthetic and the tube they stuck down his throat-- but it is hard to sleep when everything does not seem normal with your baby. It is even more unnerving that the nurses never make it in to see him gasping and his stats return to normal by the time they get to the room. I look like a crazy psycho anal mom every time I ask them if he is okay. They just check him one more time and say he sounds good.
SO for now I will try to go to sleep and hope all the effects of the pic line will go away throughout the night and I won't have to be psycho anal mom tomorrow. LOL
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